Hard To Get

By: Rich Mullins

You who live in heaven
Hear the prayers of those of us who live on earth
Who are afraid of being left by those we love
And who get hardened by the hurt

Do you remember when You lived down here where we all scrape
To find the faith to ask for daily bread
Did You forget about us after You had flown away
Well I memorized every word You said

Still I'm so scared, I'm holding my breath
While You're up there just playing hard to get

You who live in radiance
Hear the prayers of those of us who live in skin
We have a love that's not as patient as Yours was
Still we do love now and then

Did You ever know loneliness
Did You ever know need
Do You remember just how long a night can get?
When You were barely holding on
And Your friends fall asleep
And don't see the blood that's running in Your sweat

Will those who mourn be left uncomforted
While You're up there just playing hard to get?

And I know you bore our sorrows
And I know you feel our pain
And I know it would not hurt any less
Even if it could be explained

And I know that I am only lashing out
At the One who loves me most
And after I figured this, somehow
All I really need to know

Is if You who live in eternity
Hear the prayers of those of us who live in time
We can't see what's ahead
And we can not get free of what we've left behind
I'm reeling from these voices that keep screaming in my ears
All the words of shame and doubt, blame and regret

I can't see how You're leading me unless You've led me here
Where I'm lost enough to let myself be led
And so You've been here all along I guess
It's just Your ways and You are just plain hard to get

My Hands Are Shaking

my hands are shaking from carrying this torch,
from carrying this torch for you,
my lips are bleeding from kissing you goodbye,
from kissing you goodbye every night,
my sheets are tearing from sleeping in too long,
from sleeping in too long with you
my hands are shaking from carrying this torch,
from carrying this torch for you,
my lips are bleeding from kissing you goodbye,
kissing you goodbye every night.
my head is where its always been,
if only I knew where,
my feet can stand the ground or more,
it seems that I don’t care

my heart is pounding yes, yes, yes,
my mind just second guess,
my love is so articulate,
but I am such a mess.
– by Sondre Lerche from the movie “Dan In Real Life”

Last night we had a good time hanging out with friends after the
downtown Christmas parade.

Today, we got the privilege of meeting some amazing people who are
without homes in Jackson. We appreciated their hospitality to us and
their sharing of their lives with us tonight.

Oh, and Lindsay got her hair cut today. Isn’t she hot? Don’t answer.

On Saturday, I went to a funeral of my Uncle Burt’s mother Lois
Kingsley. It was a very good for me to learn about her amazing life of
faithfulness, prayer, teaching and love. My cousin Suzie said it well
when she said that I hope at the end of my life I make half the impact
on others lives that Lois did.

Last week was busy. It was very good to spend quality time with family
this weekend. I am grateful for it.

Today, it was a huge highlight to have my brother Ryan and sister-in-
law Lindsay bring our nephew Caleb over to hang out. The came to
church with us and then we went for a walk on the Falling Waters Trail
which was entirely lovely and rejuvenating to converse with them and
walk in the autumn cool weather with starbucks in hand.

We Won’t Cast Hope Aside

when something good’s been tainted

and dreams they’ve been thrown out
when all around is noise and clutter 
and vision’s bit the dust

it’s hard to sing a love song
it’s difficult to rise
it’s hard to face the giants 
with condescending eyes
but we mustn’t hide

so we come into the light
with our burdens lifted high
and we fasten up our weapons
of love and faith and we won’t cast hope aside

faith isn’t faith if there is sight
hope doesn’t last if there isn’t pride
and love never fails

I am sitting with Lindsay at the Jackson Coffee Co. downtown Jackson.
I really enjoy being here whenever we get the chance to come. It is a
great place to enjoy good friday night live music with great coffee,
conversations with people in the community and a great place to surf
the web and do work.